I feel like....

I am failing miserably at marriage.

I'm starting to learn that everything should be communicated, but I hate when there are assumptions and the person doesn't talk to the other one about it to make sure that it is true.

Sometimes I feel like I am invisible in my marriage.

Most of the times I try to be considerate and ask how his day went, how was work,etc. I would love for him to ask how my day went. I need to feel like I belong. When I start talking about my day I would love for him to look interested. Sometimes his eyes glazes over or he starts looking around the room.

I couldn't sleep tonight because I felt like I did something wrong. He didn't even kiss me goodnight. I finally kissed him after realizing that he wasn't going to. So I sat up in bed trying to think about what I did this time that made him turn away from me. He turned over and nothing. No, Honey are you ok? What's wrong, etc.

I would like for him to care if something is wrong with me.

I know I did somethings wrong at the beginning of our marriage. I didn't know what to expect or how to handle myself. If I could go back I would change how the beginning or our marriage started and try to make everything better, but I can't.

So starting right now I will start fresh. I will be the best wife that I can be, and hopefully it will be enough.